Dear Dean,
I grew up in a country where beauty is confined to a certain aesthetic: fair skin, straight hair, long legs and thin body. I am brown with untamed curls standing 5 foot flat with my thick thighs, in other words I’m unattractive by my people’s standards. I’ve struggled to breathe easy in my own skin, as even my mother regularly tells me I have to pinch my nose everyday so that it would stop being flat. On the rare occasions people called me beautiful, I always believed they said it because they found me kind towards them, or because my smile had a particular warmth to it. Sometimes, I would honestly feel downright ugly, and would be annoyed with the fact I have a twin, like why did God create a duplicate of something unpretty?
My perception of my own appearance changed however, that day you asked me if I was dating anybody, and I said “Hell no, I’m unattractive on this side of the planet.” to which you responded, “have you seen you? if you were here in Edinburgh, you will be snapped up.” I honestly googled what ‘snapped up’ meant, as it isn’t exactly a phrase that is used here in Manila. At that moment I realized, not only is your English a bit different from what I know, your eyes see my face in a different way as well, and the good kind of different. On separate occasions, I’ve also been called lovely by an Israeli gentleman and been told I have a beautiful color by workmates from Calgary and Minnesota. So I guess somewhere in the world I’m beautiful, I guess most of us just find beauty in things we do not often see. Like how we would go in awe of snow or autumn leaves, and you from your side of the world long for sun-filled tropical islands.
P.S. You still haven’t shared your picture, but it hardly matters, your kindness reassures me you are a beauty.
Regards,
Tiny